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Went to the doctor today because my headaches are back with vengeance so I went about that and I decided that hey since I am going about my headaches why not get my shoulder looked at and see if I can once and for all get it diagnosed and fixed so I did. My doc did stress test on it which my shoulder violently disliked and is now making me pay for before he diagnosed me with a torn rotator cuff that has healed wrong after the damn tests and scans and blah blah blah. Oh joy. He gave me a presciption for some pain relievers to get rid of the nagging pain I've gotten used to from it till I get on Medicaid fully and can get it fixed once and for all. That means surgery maybe two or three because he said by now it's probably bad and probably won't be able to be corrected with one surgery but I need to get it fixed or face serious problems with it in the future. As for my headaches he said the generic name for them are cap band headaches which means they feel like I have a cap on way to tight. He said while these types of headaches are not common they do happen and I shouldn't worry about them to much but that I will have them probably for the rest of my life. Oh rapture. He gave me a presciption for some headache medicine and then told me to come back when I am on insurance fully and he will send me to a orthopedic doctor to get my shoulder fixed. *looks up at the sky* You can stop now you know? I think I've had enough...not tempting you though.

We've got my apartment looking good. I feel really crappy though. Melinda came over this past Saturday to help and I had to leave at 4:30 for an interview and wasn't back till 5:30 because it took forever. Then Michelle comes by and I was like well I'll take a load of wash over to my parents and get it started. Got there and the dryer was broke there dryer so laughing I was op we're screwed. Then my grand mother gives me a 20 for the chord to our dryer so now I can do laundry here THANK THE POWER! One less reason to go over to my parents. Anyway after our trip to Lowe's to get said chord Michelle says that she has to run to Michelle Edwards house and I was like well I need to go home and help my sister in law and Jim and said it'll only take a sec and we are already on this side of town. Yeah it took 30 minutes to get to Michelle's and then Michelle decided she wanted to talk as I was trying to shove her out the door. Finally I said look I'm sorry to be rude but I HAVE to get home and help. So that got Michelle moving and we FINALLY left. Yeah by the time I got home it was 10 and Melinda was gone. I feel so bad. When I went it the living room was done and I was like shit! Anyway it looks good and I have the poster holders for Alexis's posters that I am going to hang up in her room and am about to get those up on the walls and am looking at allposters.com for old worlds fair posters for the living room and Coke posters for the kitchen and Chinese posters for the hallway. This apartment is going to look awesome when I get done.

Went out last night and had a really good time. Michelle and Michelle really know how to have a good time. We laughed all night. It's been to long since I have been out with friends and God how I've missed it. Sear's didn't call today but I forgot that Bryan is on vacation this week which sucks majorly but hey I might get it and I might now if not then I'll go get another job somewhere else. I've made up my mind to start back to CCC in the spring and just get the rest of my basics out of the way then and then after I do that decide what I want to do and go for it. Oh and I also got my computer moniter fixed. I just unplugged it and plugged it in twice and bam there is goes working. So I got my baby back and can finally listen to music again! Thank God!

Went to my interview at Sears and the guy really like me but hasn't called back yet. Today is Sunday though so maybe he'll call tomorrow. I'll keep my fingers crossed but it is just Sears but it is a job too that pays money which is something I really need right now. Well going out with friends so see ya!

Done:
1) Got up and fixed Lexie some food before I left her with Jim
1) Went to high school and to get the bogus suspension of my license that was done back in 2001 off my driving record because I never dropped out so I can get insurance in my name and get my license
2) Went to DMV with my transcript and told them that my school had no record of ever sending that in and they said that they are the only ones the could have sent that in so it will remain on my record
3) Took Jim to unemployment office
4) Went to the Greater Baptist Association and get money for power bill owed to Marion Ridge and found out that I need an appointment called and of course no one answered
5) Called Allstate about insurance and of course they took a message and will call me back
6) Went to Sears to see if anything was open there and low and behold they were hireing in Electronics...for me...because they told the girl right in front of me that they weren't hiring so I got the formality of an interview tomorrow but I am in is what the new manager said
7) Went to every shop in the mall and applied still just in case
8) Talked to Amy about going down to a two bedroom and she said that they are not having a move in special right now and the two bedrooms are the same price as the three bedroom I have right now so nope not going anywhere right now


To do:
1) Go to interview tomorrow at Sears at 4:30 pm
2) Wait on call back from Allstate and call the GBA back about power
3) Go to unemployment office myself and get on the job link program there and see if they can help in my job hunting

And what do you know folks I am right back where I started two years ago...except this time around I am not living with my parents...thank God...I am married...no comment...and I have a precious little girl...well I guess sometimes you have to start at the beginning again to find out what you did wrong the first time so that's what I'm doing. Going back to the beginning....funny how life comes full circle on you.

Alright to start off with I didn't go partying last night. I had to much to do today and wanted to get some sleep so I could get it all done so I met Michelle at Wal-Mart and told her that I wasn't going sorry but being an adult sucks. She laughed when I told her this and said that her sister had called moments earlier and told her that her parents and grand parents had gotten home early and she was not going to be able to make it either. So we both didn't go and I crashed when I got home only to get up this morning and start again.

Done:
1) Got up and fixed Lexie some food before I left her with Jim
1) Went to high school and to get the bogus suspension of my license that was done back in 2001 off my driving record because I never dropped out so I can get insurance in my name and get my license
2) Went to DMV with my transcript and told them that my school had no record of ever sending that in and they said that they are the only ones the could have sent that in so it will remain on my record
3) Took Jim to unemployment office
4) Went to the Greater Baptist Association and get money for power bill owed to Marion Ridge and found out that I need an appointment called and of course no one answered
5) Called Allstate about insurance and of course they took a message and will call me back

To do:
1) Wait on call back from Allstate and call the GBA back about power
2) Go to Sears and see if anything is open there
3) Go to every shop in the mall and apply....except Goody's because my grand mother works there and Belk's because Mindy who couldn't stand me and made my life a living hell at Sears now works there and like hell I am putting up with her shit again no thank you
4) Go to unemployment office myself and get on the job link program there and see if they can help in my job hunting

Done:
1) Rent PAID
2) 20 dollars gas put in car
3) Called children's clinic and made appointment for Alexis's 8 months check up
4) Called computer connections about lap top and found out it would cost more to get it fixed then it would to buy a brand new one
5) 60 dollars of alcohol bought thanks to my best friend Michelle and her pay check
6) Oil change
7) Car wash
8) Food stamps (DSS)
9) Called about computer monitor and got claim form on the way
10) Applied at Wal-Mart and Auto Zone

To do tonight and tomorrow:
1) Party and get plowed like there's no tomorrow with Michelle tonight...thank God Jim is watching Alexis for me
2) Go to high school and get the bogus suspension of my license that was done back in 2001 off my driving record because I never dropped out so I can get insurance in my name and get my license
3) Take Jim to unemployment office
4) Go to the Greater Baptist Association and get money for power bill owed to Marion Ridge
5) Go to Sears and see if anything is open there
6) Go to every shop in the mall and apply....except Goody's because my grand mother works there and Belk's because Mindy who couldn't stand me and made my life a living hell at Sears now works there and like hell I am putting up with her shit again no thank you
7) Go to unemployment office myself and get on the job link program there and see if they can help in my job hunting

I think that's all I have to do....*starts to walk away* Yeah some tropical island somewhere....white sand...crystal blue water...

Done:
1) Rent PAID
2) 20 dollars gas put in car
3) Called children's clinic and made appointment for Alexis's 8 months check up
4) Called computer connections about lap top and found out it would cost more to get it fixed then it would to buy a brand new one
5) 60 dollars of alcohol bought thanks to my best friend Michelle and her pay check

To do:
1) Oil change
2) Car wash
3) Food stamps (DSS)
4) Party and get plowed like there's no tomorrow with Michelle tonight...thank God Jim is watching Alexis for me

Update on my previous post....called Tommy back and he said he would have to wait till tonight to get the money from the Amvet's. Alright no problem...NOT...went to Amy and told her and she said FIRST THING in the morning so THANK GOD on that. Now if the Amvet's aren't total pricks and let me have it....which I think they will let me have it because I am paying them back....then all is good and I can go to the Greater Baptist Association tomorrow and get the money needed to pay the power bill with Marion Ridge which is another call I have to make and get the power switched over to my name. Also called about my lap stop and instead of a simple fix like I thought the thing needs a whole new mother board in it because the power plug in the back in hocked in to the mother board. I also started my period last night. *bangs head* I need a cigarette....maybe Flips g/f will buy me another pack because and I quote I look stressed out and sick....*sigh* But I really don't need to take up smoking again because Jim already dips and that's enough expense there which he hasn't had any new dip in a few days which I think is funny....but Flip said he'd buy him a can if he plays video games with him tonight so that's nice of him. Something good has to happen soon....right? Well at least Lexie is happy and doesn't know anything about what's going on right now and I got my health *looks up at the sky* I didn't mean that in a smart ass way either universe.

Run down on the last three days:

Monday:
1) Got up and feed Lexie
2) Left Lexie with Jim and ran to the social security office and waited for 30 minutes before I finally got new cards for me and Alexis on there way which took a grand total of five minutes once I got to the window
3) When to the register of deeds office and paid ten dollars that I squeezed out of my poor step dad to get my birth certificate
4) Went and applied at Fins and Critters for an opening there. They said they would call. Then went and checked on the Lowe's and Radio Shack applications I put in
5) Cleaned up and organized the bathroom and Lexie's room while Jim and Lexie took naps
6) Went to Melinda's to relax

That was my most non stressful day...

Tuesday:
1) Got up and went to the DSS
2) Signed up for Medicaid, Work First (which is a ER thing but found out have to wait for the lump sum check so no help with the rent there) and half signed up for food stamps but had to leave before I could finish because of time restrictions. This whole process took from 9 am to 1:20 pm.
3) Got home and yelled at Jim for not waking up and feeding Alexis
4) Feed Alexis myself
5) Got Jim to drive me to my counseling appointment at two which lasted till three when I had my doc shaking his head at everything which is never a great sign
6) Went and talked to Amy about everything that had went down and pleaded and begged with her to wait till 2 pm today to give me time to exhaust every ave to find the rent money and to wait on filing the eviction notice which she is going to do souly as a favor to me
7) Went over to my mothers house got on line here because I took my lap top into computer connections because it won't hold a charge and the movers broke my monitor (mutters) and looked at the Employment Security Commission web site, Cleveland County web site, and DSS web site looking for jobs because I heard there were some openings
8) Did a load of laundry
9) Went home took my medicine, gave Lexie a bottle, put the very tired Lexie to bed and crashed

Today:
1) Got up and ran to Food Lion and got Lexie's WIC stuff
2) Got home fixed Lexie's food and left her with Jim to feed her
3) Came to my mom's house with a list of places that DSS gave me to try and scrounge up the rent anyway I could
4) Was told by every one of them no except the Salvation Army and The Greater Baptist Association but these two put together would only be 125 which is not even close enough to the 672.05 I need
5) I called my step dad and asked him to call the Amvet's and see if they could help as my last ditch hope. He called back and asked how much I needed and I told him and then told him I could pay it back out of check I am getting from DSS and he said he would see what he could do and I am waiting for him to call back because if he can't help then I am screwed and I am going to have to let Amy file

I need a vacation....again....*starts to walk away* maybe some tropical island somewhere where no one knows who I am and no one knows where I am here....